Underneath...

I walk around smiling.

People smile back.

Friends talk to me.

I do what I have to do,

Though it's not enough.

A smile that covers the pain,

The sorrow,

The screaming.

The warmth is crawling up, 

I can't stop it.

Then it all pulls together,

A ball of pain.

I feel like I'm dying,

Slowly, painfully.

The ball of pain keeps pushing and pushing,

Till finally I give up.

I'm scared,

It hurts so bad.

Just when I think it can't get any worse,

The ball of pain explodes!

It bursts into flames and hits the walls.

It destroys everything in it's way.

Now I'm numb,

But only for a second.

Then the pain feels like it's tearing me apart from inside,

I can't breathe.

Help me!

I start to scream till my lungs collapse.

The pain has taken over,

It won't stop.

No ending.

Underneath I'm crying.

Underneath I'm screaming.

Underneath I'm torn apart.

Underneath I'm numb.

I have to hide it.

Underneath, underneath, underneath. 

Written by Sascha Dollard

06.11.13

Being in love

Endless possibilities.

My hole body smiles.
How can this be?

Dreams of the future.

Everyone else disappears.

Just you and I.

I spread my wings of hope and jump.

I believe that I can fly and touch the sky.

Just you and I.

The sound of his name.
I whisper it again and again.

How can this be so beautiful and still hurt so bad?

Oh, I wonder.

One moment I can't stop smiling, the next, tears fall like rain from my eyes.

Just tell me you feel the same.

Tell me that you'll be mine, and I'll be fine.

Please! Just say it.

 

The thought of your embrase.

The touch of your lips on mine.

Your fingers running through my hair.

Oh such joy!

Dance with me, make me sway.

Dance the night away.

How long must my tears water this pillow?

 

My plead is as simple as it can be,
say you love me...

Written by Sascha Dollard

20.09.2014

Could this be love?

My heart jumps when I think of you.

Is this all just a dream?

I see your smile, it warms my heart.

I've not known you long, but these butterflies tells me, there could be something here.

How will I know?

Feelings come sneaking up on me, where could this lead?

When you are all alone, do I cross your mind?

I feel so lonely I could die.

When I think of you, I could cry.

Do you feel the same?

Am I just a long lost memory?

If you do not feel like I do, then all I ask of you; please release my heart.

Set me free so I can breathe again. 

Let me go, so I can smile once again.

Written by Sascha Dollard

25.09.2014