You saved me!

You saved me from,
tears and frustration,
times I wanted to scream.
Hurting and pain,
where I couldn't dream.
Sorrow and sadness,
I was drowning in my tears.
Badness and illness,
you saved me from my fears.

How can I ever thank you,
this I don't know.
Now you made me see,
that the person you saved me from,
was really just me!



Written by Sascha Dollard
25.dec.10

How could I?

You make me angry,
you make me cry.
You make me wanna hit you,
but how could I?

You make me happy,
you make me laugh,
you make me wanna love you,
but my heart's in half.

I love you,
I hate you,
I need you,
I don't want you.

You bring out the best in me,
you bring out the worst.
You make me a better person.
You make me wanna hurt.

What can I do?
You are who you are!

I'm frustrated,
irritated,
I'm shaking inside,
I'm totally out of it,
cause you make me cry.

I want you to pay back,
all the tears you made me cry,
but you don't understand,
so how could I?



Written by Sascha Dollard
23.dec.10

My past...

I am 17 and I have a heavy heart,
and now I need to let it all out.
Once upon a time I was a happy girl,
running, playing, laughing in the big world.

My family was okay at the start,
but then some of them broke my heart.
They turned against me when I needed them most,
I won't even forgive there ghosts.

I had some problems with my past,
that even I didn't know I had.
They were stuck in my head,
and sometimes I wished I was dead.

My mom helped me alot,
but I was still caught.
In my head I was big, fat and ugly.
But I guess I was lucky.

In 7th grade,
all good went away.
I got to a new school,
with alot of new rules.

I got so-called friends,
they helped me with some loose ends.
But then they turned and stapped me in the back,
my nerves were ready to crack.

I was in a blue mood,
cause they were rude.
Time went by,
and I started to cry.

Now, my mom helpes me every day,
and I must say:
Without God, I wouldn't have gotten through it,
so thanks for letting me do it.

To all those who made my life bad,
I just wanna say:
In the end I wanna thank you,
cause you made me that much stronger!





Written by Sascha Dollard
10.may.10 - 22.dec.10